I made Tommy over a year ago at my last job. He gives out advice that no one wants to but needs to hear. My perfect little excuse to say what’s on my mind and not keep my mouth shut. I needed that mental ass kicking earlier this year.
I’m in a creative slump. I want to get back into writing. It always ends up becoming so toxic though. I drove myself crazy with my last digital notebook. I want to paint, but I’m discouraged constantly by seeing all the talented artwork online. It’s not jealousy, I don’t think, but maybe embarrassment.
I just want to be able to confidently say I’m an artist.
It blows my mind just how talented and creative people can be, and I feel like I have none of that. I can come up with big ideas, I just can’t execute them with my current lifestyle. THERE is Tommy speaking.
Five days in, I’m feeling ok. The irritability is going to be setting in real soon though, I’ll need to mind my manners to the world around me. Remember, don’t be a dick.
The holiday weekend just started and I’m going to need to find a way to entertain myself while avoiding booze for the next three days. I should get outside. I hope it’s nice.
I still need to work on saving money better, focusing at work, and keeping my place clean. It wouldn’t hurt to eat a little better either. Don’t start replacing the urge for alcohol with food. I need to stop trying to find new hobbies and settle with all of the shit I have. I have a book I need to read.
Tommy the Tutorial Turtle needs to teach me time management tools. I need to start using my calendar and find my smartwatch. i need to get organized.
I think it’s time for bed.