It’s difficult being indifferent. You walk into your local coffee shop and they have thirty options scribbled in chalk in the barista’s best comic sans impression. Not only that, but they even let you mix and match your own espressos and expressos (which may or may not exist depending on the city) so you have six billion ways to tweak out on your way to work.
Then there’s the traffic, leaving the downtrodden neighborhood you live in, passing that one intersection that traps you four days a week for five minutes, merging onto an inner city highway with hundreds of other tweakers pissed off that they have to spend five bucks on gas to go work for someone else after dropping ten on hot steaming energy.
Then you finally get to work – a half full office reeking of covid misery and last night’s pick-me-up. Debra is already asking you about your weekend at 8:00am when she knows damn well you just watched Disney+ and neglected your laundry after saying you were going to power through the weekend all productive and such.
Boss man is already asking for that project you’ve been procrastinating on and the expresso9000 with extra soy is wearing off. The phone rings and it’s that one client who can’t take a hint that they are the problem and you just wish they would break up with you because you don’t have the heart to lose your job.
Lunch is the same as usual, except the game of “what’s that smell?” is always a fresh reminder of someone else’s tastes. You wonder if the food you’re eating is really the best decision for your body and then think back to the cost of feeding yourself throughout the week.
Then you get back to the grind, with a full belly and tired mind, just counting down the hours until you can drive back in the same conditions that brought you there, knowing only you have to do the same thing the next day.
You get home and through the exhaustion struggle to keep a smile on your face to those you surround yourself with, be it your significant other, or children, or roommates. You socialize with your friends and make the best of the remainder of the day trying not to dwell on the problems of tomorrow.
It’s difficult being indifferent. You’ve had a rough day and feel like nothing ever goes your way. How can someone expect you to be happy when there’s nothing around you keeping you supported? Sure, you have your therapist to help, but that’s not enough for you. The doctor even helps you with medicine to ease the issues that you have to face each day. Still you find yourself lashing out in anger or quietly crying to yourself in your alone time on those random drives you take, circling the neighborhood to get some fresh air.
Then you wonder to yourself, “Why does it have to be this way?”.You do everything in your power to make things right and work to achieve the goals you put before yourself, but there’s always something holding you back. Each day you constantly change moods throughout the day, highs and lows, from the caffeine in your coffee to the lectures of your superiors.
It’s difficult being indifferent – but our positivities serve as a catalyst to promote a better life for everyone in your path. These positivities, like supporting your child in a sport or going out of your way to lend a hand to a friend in need build on themselves, are amplified through those who chose to spread these positivities.
By keeping our heads up throughout the day and being considerate, we can promote a better and happier society. Well that’s just great – but the world doesn’t work that way. Every action has a reaction and our economy is not designed to keep everyone happy. The people at the top – the ones with all the ideas – have the system designed to add more work to the ones below them. Unfortunately the standard says that the people below are being paid less money, and in a world where promotions are necessary to motivate employees to work, there will forever be a hierarchy in vertical business structures.
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This becomes a problem for all people – especially those in financial crisis. The world is never in balance, and good doesn’t always defeat evil. Low income promotes crime, and negativities spread like wildfire until everyone is consumed and biased.
We dwell on these issues, and they perpetuate feelings of anger and grief on not only others, but ourselves. Then we feed into these problems through gossiping or adding to the problem online with our heavily based opinions. These feelings are amplified to those who spread these negativities.
We draw a line between ourselves and the people we fight – it gives us purpose. These amplifications of our emotions become the cause of sadness, and block out the light that we bring to the table. The light can’t shine on the whole world, so we move the problem the best we can. War is good for business, and low paying jobs are best kept overseas, right?
Cause and effect sucks. It’s difficult being indifferent.
We can’t fix everything, but we can close the gap. By building communities that work together instead of resisting each others existence, we can pick and choose the hills we die on, choose what changes we want to stand against, and close the gap between right and wrong, because there are two sides to every coin, and when you look closely, they’re actually part of the same coin, dumbass.
It’s ok to be indifferent about some things, as long as we focus on what’s important, we stay two steps ahead and bring ourselves together simultaneously. The jobs are there – it takes two to tango on their own but there’s a whole dance floor that needs to be filled. We can close the gap by doing everything we’re supposed to do when we can, and not take advantage of the person in front of us when there’s something that we need.